Inspiration

What gives inspiration?
Why must it often be
a dark unforgettable
tragety
or dissaster

Why cant I write
just to write
of trees
or natures beauty?

I've tried
but my trees
burned and died
My inspiration
black as the ash
from the times
I have burned

The missed chances
The unclear, dark future
And the love I'm
missing out on

Why must my inspiration
be dark
Will it take a miracle
like the return of
my butterfly
to change my
inspiration?

I hope the past
will stop replaying
and give me a rest
from the misery
it plauges me with
The stuff of nightmares

I laugh at the thought
of my inspiration changing
It seems so permanent
Unchanging
Dark

If only the one thing
could happen
that could change
my inspiration
If only

Tim Kashore
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/inspiration-69/